I’m tired of not being good enough, it’s like he never even noticed how hard I was trying, how many times I stood there waiting for him to realize that no matter what I wasn’t leaving.
I felt like a second thought, like a gift given but not really appreciated, tossed aside like it’s not good enough.
I may not be the love of his life or “soul-mate” but I do care and would do anything for him. This may not last forever or even for the next few months/years it feels like I’m never going to stop loving him, hurts to know he probably doesn’t feel the same anymore.
It’s really hard when you put your heart out there for someone you care for/love because you never will truly know how long it will last or even that they love you back as much, but as you sit around fixing the cracks and fallen pieces you realize that even though it hurt like hell in the end it was the best time of your life. Love hurts but it can make you feel like you are on top of the world, like you’re invincible, love lets you push your worries out the doors, you’re walking around on cloud 9 with little hearts in your eyes…The only bad part is when that cloud disappears and you fall hard back into reality with a broken heart and nothing but memories of what use to be.
pooping my pants at the age of 4